This has been a weird week as I have settled back into my job and home life. It is difficult to carry on the routines of normal life when it feels like a big part of my life has been stripped away and my thoughts are constantly with Scott and Bryce. However, this is the way it has to be. Diapers must be changed, meals must be cooked, and paychecks must be earned. However, as I operate my life with a knife stuck in my heart in many ways I am thankful for the blade. My wound keeps sending me to Christ. I don’t want things to get back to the way they were. I want to love my wife and kids more than ever. I want to watch TV less and seek God more. I want to serve my wonderful church more faithfully. Most of all I want more of Christ. I do not want time to heal this wound. Nor do I want to dull the ache with the TV or Internet. I don’t even want to find refuge by just busying myself with family time. I want my refuge to be in Christ and Christ alone. If he does not give me peace, then I don’t want peace.
Thursday, November 20, 2008
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Adam,
I really appreciate your words here. I know you are hurting, but it is such a true message that we should strive to have our joy in Christ alone. I'm with ya! I have been reading the blog religiously and everything that Scott, Jonathon, you, and others have written have been a ministry to me and others. Keep it coming!
I know that is how I have been feeling. Thank you so much for your blog.
Adam,
When I heard you say this at church on Sunday it cut to the bone. What a courageous thought and prayer! It amazes me how one sentence can spur on a world of thoughts and passions. Thank you for your honesty and endurance in seeking Christ.
Kristen
Jonathan, Christ will give you peace through your service to others--and first among these is your family. Don't feel that you are escaping by deeply involving yourself with those you love. This morning I worked with some beautiful souls who happen to have Alzheimers. Each one of these was able to tell of things she was thankful for. Later in the grocery store I met a former student who is recovering from cancer--and whose son was murdered in the past year. Her comment--in spite of her troubles, God is good.
In spite of our sorrows--life's work does continue, and God's grace is sufficient.
yes, please don't forget about emily. i imagine it would be like losing a sister, and if that happened to me, i think i would be lost forever.
Hi Adam,
I don't know you but I appreciate your words. They are so very true. May God be with you and your family.
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